If you’re new here welcome. To catch up read these posts. This one here explains what Optifast is which is my most asked question, and also my journey thus far. 

Okay so I’ve been on the program 1 month now. Yay for milestones! In 4 weeks I’ve lost 22.5 lbs. I’m getting measured on Friday so I’ll make sure to list my inches next week.

So that's another goal to cross off. Heck yes. Closer to that iPhone people!!

Some things that happened over the last week:

Last night on my drive home from Toronto I called my sister so we could chat (I have blue tooth people so calm down, it was hands free). So to give you a bit of background, I'm the overweight sister. Have been my entire adult life.  My sister on the other hand has been the smaller one. She’s had her own struggles, and for her own privacy I won’t post her weight but she’s been up (for her) and down too, but mostly on the smaller side.

So, she’s telling me a story about how people have mentioned her getting too skinny. And in the past when she was really really skinny I've even said that to her (in hindsight out of jealousy). One person even told her she looked anorexic. She replied but just saying ‘that’s really not nice’ and moved on with her day but it stuck in her head. Of course the people who mentioned these things to her were not happy with their current weight and were trying to lose, but had to tell her she looked too skinny. She’s a healthy BMI, completely fit and trying to gain muscle. She’s happy with her eating habits, has her chip addiction under control. But now she was being shamed for being too skinny. So to me this seems like we can’t win. I’m judged for being overweight. I can tell when people look at me, I’m also always trying to be funny to over compensate for my looks (Like if I'm funny you'll be friends with me and keep me around, otherwise why hang out with the fat girl??)   I’m always watching people’s eyes when I’m talking to them in a group of people. They are constantly looking at me up and down. And then when you are actually at your goal weight, you’re too skinny and look sick. I’m guilty of saying shit too (read this post) but I’m really trying to be aware of it, and know that when I make a comment like that It’s coming from self-hate, and jealousy. And that’s not okay. I no sooner get off the phone with my sister and there is a post about Chrissy Tiegen getting online hated because of her mother’s day brunch making photo. Are you kidding? I mean I wish I had her body never mind just after having a baby. But c’mon, can’t people just be nice. Her body is her job people. That poor woman can’t do anything right, people just keep hating on her. (side note, once I’m back on food, I need her cookbook, it’s totes healthy right?!?)

Anyways, that’s just my rant of the day. I have 9 more weeks of full shakes people. And then transition time. And maybe then I won't be such a rambling cranky lady.

Sigh. I miss cheese.