I'm scared to death of food !! Yikes. 

I've the past week I've had a few non scale victories I'm pretty proud of. As I'm trying not to focus on scale ( no more weight lost posting till end of shakes)

1. I bought a dress in the non plus size section of a store. WHAT ?!?! I could have cried. Mind you it was a Xxl but still. 

This is said dress :

Pretty right ? The dress not me. Ha!

2. I swapped out my 3xl jacket for xl at old navy. 

3. And then Tanya bless her heart found some lovely pics of me from a wedding last August wearing one of my fave floral dresses and put side to side with one from a pic of me wearing the same dress June 3 this year. 

Ew. 

Crazy. 

4. My blood pressure meds have been cut in half. Yay!! 

5. I worked out every day. Even the morning before I shot a 10 hour wedding. 

Wish me luck over this long weekend. My last long weekend on shakes !!

If you follow me on Instagram you will know last week I posted I was down 45.4. And then changed it to 48.4. Because after a bunch of us weighed in they said something was wrong with scale. A bunch of people weren't down weight. So they "fixed it" and now everyone was down 3 more pounds. So great. I was down 8! Turns out scale was correct the first time. So last week I was down 45. And now I'm down 47. That's not a very big drop. I'm pissed. And it's stupid. Because in the grand scheme of things I'm doing amazing. I know this. But it's such a mind fuck when you live by numbers. And I hate that. So once I hit 50 lbs I won't be posting weekly pounds lost anymore because the numbers are starting to control me. And that's not good. 

I also worked up the courage to post a before and during. This is a different version in same shirt. 7.5 weeks between these photos. Crazy right. ?

This is what I need to focus on. And my blood pressure being down. Not the stupid scale. It's so hard not to though. 

Anywho Zumba kicked my butt tonight so I'm off to bed. 

The last two weeks have tested me. Car died twice. We had to put new engine in. Thank god for retired mother who lent me her car. I pick up my car tomorrow. 3k poorer. Only to come home tonight. and find out my hot water heater broke and leaked all over my basement. 

For those of you who just blog hopped from Alison - Welcome!

If not, I'll fill you in on what's happening today: The Blended Blog has started a new 'What's in my..." Series, and I joined in for the first round, what's in my handbag! I was hoping to get the Make-up bag one, because sadly - this is just boring, and rather sad. I'm a Mom and should have a cool Mom bag with like bandaids and stuff. Nope.

Here's what I have:

Yes, I carry tea in my purse. you know for emergencies. Also, please note that gum is empty, and has been since last Thursday and I'm too lazy to throw it out.

Some fun things:

• Hand Cream - l'occitane shea butter
• A million lipsticks, well not really, but I carry nude shades in my purse and a lipgloss. My new Kat Von D  (In lolita) is there, and NUDE STIX (thanks ipsy)
• EOS, because dry offices
• Random change, because I'm lazy
• A wristlet I sub as my wallet, as I'm too lazy to carry a full one.
• My iPhone 5c, which will be gone this week, as I get my new phone. (yay!!)

36. Age I turned on the 6th. 

16. Number of Mother's Day I've had! Crazy. (Read about it here ) 

29- selfies taken.  Yes seriously.  It's bad but I'm using the "trying to document weightloss " as my excuse. I'm not posting them all because that's crazyness.

1 - family day trip. To pioneer village. Read about that here. 

0 - date nights. Which makes me sad. I told nick we need to make time in June and stick to it. 

2- times my car died. First battery. Second engine. May sucked. 

24(ish) pounds lost in May. I say ish cause I'm only weighed on Tuesday's so it's hard to be accurate.  But good enough. 

9- coffee and or food posts on Instagram.  Because I only eat 2 cups of veggies a day I'm trying to be fancy. 

4 - number of baseball games nick had. I love that he's playing baseball and the kids get to watch.

5 - 1st place wins ( only 3 pictured here ) for Abby at track. That kid swims, plays baseball and soccer. She's crazy athletic. 

2 - weddings Miller Ellis had in May. Here a really bad selfie of tanya and I at the old mill. 

3 - books given to me as gifts. 

0- books read. 

15 days of 21 day fix done. Until ...

1 sciatic nerve pinched .  So instead 

7 days of piYo done instead. 

Blog stats this month is :4502 page views - way up from last month (3353). 

And I lost 10 freaking pounds last week.

For a grand total of 40 effing pounds. 

Yes that means I get my iPhone. Sadly my engine in my car blew up on Sunday. Yes same car I had problems with a week ago. So I still have yet to purchase purse (way too picky ) and now phone. This may take a few weeks now that I need to put a new engine In my car but that's okay. I know they are coming ! Rose gold iPhone here I come. 

Also big shout out to Deena from Shoes to Shiraz for sending me a Kylie Jenner lip kit. I have no idea how you and Christy even manage to buy them. Every time I try they are sold out. Crazy teenagers lol 

Anyways. 

This weeks class focus was on cognitive behaviour therapy. It was really interesting and I'm excited to work through the worksheets. I like the emotional eating focus this program has. Because I'm a huge emotional eater. 

I'll talk more about that soon because we've only just started so it's all pretty new to me. It's really interesting tho. 

Also in other news I pinched a nerve in my lower back fairly certain it's my sciatic nerve and I haven't done a 21 day fix since and have managed to do piYo instead.  It's been good to stretch it out. They are fairly hard videos but I'm enjoying them. I'll do them for the next month and see how it goes. My goal: 22 minute hard core! I think I'll need to be on food to do those !!! 

I'm finding this post a bit boring other than the cool amount of weight loss and the fact that halfway through shakes. I should have probably waited to post my photos from last week to this week. Sh well. My next progress photos won't be for 6 more weeks. 

I'm tired and going to sleep now. Peace out !

Funny story about this dress. 6 weeks ago when I tried it on I looked like sausage in casing. Now it fits ! I'm trying not to buy any new clothing for a while so I was glad when this fit for today's prompt ! 

First pic, my 11 year old took this morning. She took 8 photos, all out of focus, I could salvage this one:

ONCE UPON A TIME & HAPPILY EVER AFTER : Library-Lovin’-Lady