If you follow me on Instagram you will know last week I posted I was down 45.4. And then changed it to 48.4. Because after a bunch of us weighed in they said something was wrong with scale. A bunch of people weren't down weight. So they "fixed it" and now everyone was down 3 more pounds. So great. I was down 8! Turns out scale was correct the first time. So last week I was down 45. And now I'm down 47. That's not a very big drop. I'm pissed. And it's stupid. Because in the grand scheme of things I'm doing amazing. I know this. But it's such a mind fuck when you live by numbers. And I hate that. So once I hit 50 lbs I won't be posting weekly pounds lost anymore because the numbers are starting to control me. And that's not good. 

I also worked up the courage to post a before and during. This is a different version in same shirt. 7.5 weeks between these photos. Crazy right. ?

This is what I need to focus on. And my blood pressure being down. Not the stupid scale. It's so hard not to though. 

Anywho Zumba kicked my butt tonight so I'm off to bed.