One year. My god, I can't believe it's been a over a year.

Since I wrote THIS post.

Since I all of a sudden got some super human willpower to have the ability to get through 3 months of drinking shakes only.

Since I decided "hey, working out isn't so bad"

Since I replaced one addiction (food) for another (the gym).

In 100 years, I would never have imagined I would be where I was today. I had hoped. So many nights of going to bed thinking "when I'm skinny", or "when I'm under 200 lbs" I will be so happy, and have these pretty clothes, and everyone will love me, and life will be perfect.

Wrong.

Well, I do have pretty clothes. But now I'm constantly thinking about said clothes. How does my waist look, how does my ass look, can you see my saggy arm skin, do these stripes make me look fat.

WTF? Before, at 320 pounds I would put clothing on and that was it. I was fat, and I dressed my fat body in basically whatever I wanted. I didn't have to ask if I looked fat in it. What a stupid question, of course I did, I WAS 320 POUNDS! But, I looked cute in my fat clothes and didn't give a shit.

I'm way more stressed now and that is not good. The last two months I've had one hell of a time mentally. I've basically been in a plateau (completely my own fault) since December. I've gained and lost the same 10 lbs over and over. Because of binging. I keep trying different things and they work for a week and a weekend hits and something happens and I eat everything in my house. Currently right now I'm 7 days binge free, and I consider this a win. Because that's the longest in months I've gone. This will not be fixed by shakes. By beachbody, by optifast, by waist trainers, by whatever booty program you want to sell me. It will be a constant battle for the rest of my life of me trying to maintain a healthy relationship with food and not self medicating with pizza. THANK GOD my program I'm on comes with the social worker because I need her badly. And our support group  monthly.

So - part of my 'don't binge eat' and find something better to do program, I'm getting back to blogging. I'm going to join in on link ups. I'm going to start reading again and not binge watching Netflix and putting my energy into productive things and not time wasters (I  mean I'm not totally giving up TV don't be ridiculous) but just maybe less of it.

So. What kind of stuff should I blog about (you know besides weight loss/food/working out and my kids). Anything else? Who even reads this shit? Comment below :)

xo

I'm so excited to be back to blogging again, and participating in a blog hop with The Blended Blog ladies again!

It's been a very long while since I've blogged. Being back on food is way more time consuming than grabbing shake and well since its wedding season and I have 4 kids something had to give. 

Quick Update but OMGGGGGGG I’m DOWN : 68 lbs!!!!

 

12 weeks of shakes done. Gone. I never have to do that again. Ever.

 

68 Pounds GONE FOREVER. And I mean forever this time, because I will never gain those particular pounds back. No, I’m not at my goal weight, I don’t even know what that is, but I knew I had to lose at least 60lbs and I’ve done more than that.

 

One of my first posts (you can read here) mentioned some things I wanted more than I wanted to eat food.  I don’t have them/or can do them all, but a lot I can:

 

-          Wear a pretty bra

-          I now have a waist

-          People no longer ask me if I’m pregnant (Score!)

-          I haven’t flown yet, but I’m almost positive I won’t need a seatbelt extender

-          I CAN CROSS MY LEGS

 

This is most of the list guys. Add to it too my meds have been cut in half, and I can now work out and do cardio much longer than 8 minutes like I could 12 weeks ago. I can do a full 1 hour Zumba class now. Oh, and a minute of burpees or planks.

 

 

I have energy to play with my children, and actually go out and do stuff.

 

I’m excited to see what the next 3 months bring, and not only how much weight I’ll lose but how much muscle I can grow.

 

Follow along with me on Instagram @26weeksofhangry

 

 

ONE WEEK LEFT TILL I CHEW STUFF. Well lets be real, I’ve eaten some veggies, but c’mon it’s not the same as protein. And this girl is craving some protein. I’m so effing excited.

 

I had a good week this week, though the long weekend was very difficult. I associate long weekends with food and booze, and while others I was around enjoyed those things, I did not. I just enjoyed their company instead.

 

Man do I miss beer.

 

But I digress, I made it through, and still haven’t cheated. I have goals ya’ll.

 

We’ve been learning in class about meal prepping, and what we will be eating, and so because I only have one week I’ll chat about that a bit.

 

Transition Week 1 –

 

3 shakes, 1 meal of 3oz of protein and 2 cups veggies.

 

Pretty basic. And easy – and I’m excited. 

 

Transition Week 2 & 3

 

Shit gets crazy. Basically it’s 2 shakes, and 2 meals, and I’m allowed a bit more variety in foods. Once I wrap my head around what I can eat, and once I have a meal plan, I will let ya’ll know. Plus I’m sure I’ll take pictures of meal prepping on Sunday July 17^th lol cause that’s when I’ll be prepping food I can’t eat for a few days (life is so unfair).

 

I ordered these containers to make meal prep easier. The number one thing they teach us ( and I totally agree with ) is that you need to be prepared to be successful.

 

Plan

 

Purchase

 

Prepare

 

Pack

 

It’s so true. How often do I ‘forget’ a lunch and have to buy one, or get lazy with dinner. Or am out and need to grab something quickly. I’m going to have calendars and spreadsheets of all of my meals, and schedule in ‘date nights’ or ‘lunches’ once in a while (because you have to live) but I’ll know exactly when that is happening how much food I can have, and what I can have

 

This terrifies me guys. Cause I really want chips/dip/wine and Netflix.

 

In other news, trying to make a better me, I’ve decided I need to read 30 minutes a day. And turn off my phone and just read. This is easier said than done, but if I only watch one tv show per night it can happen. And will distract me from night time eating hopefully. Tea perhaps? Not in this heat. 

In other other news I finished my 21 day fix ( second round ). I realize I bastardized it a bit throwing Zumba in there instead of cardio fix  Or Pilates fix some days but who cares. I'm a rule breaker.  I lost 16 lbs and 7.8 inches total in 21 days. I'm glad i actually did measurements and weight this time. Woot ! The next challenge starts next week and I think my sister are going to try p90x3 - lord help me. I'm gearing up to try 22 min hard corps for September. I'm trying to sucker people into doing it with me. Everyone I know who's done it has seen some crazy results from that one and I like 22 minute work outs. Especially at back to school time when life is crazy and I want to hybernate. 

Anyway I think that’s all I have for now. Boring post I realize. 

Peace.