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• Day 1 was the hardest. Looking back but it really wasn't that hard 
• Day 2 and 3 had I woke up with head aches but they went away mid morning. 
• I've felt great since. I mean energy. Clearer head. No head aches. Not hungry. Not bloaty. So bizarre. 
• I'm annoying stalking Instagram like nobody's business. Ive replaced eating with stalking hashtags. 
• But I made a friend! While stalking the optifast hashtag I found others who were in similar programs. Turns out she's in the same one as me - small world. Now we're Insta friends and I go to her for support because she's in week 9. So she knows all the things. 
• Nick quit smoking and I want to murder him. 
•  I'm a psychopath. My mood swings are all over. I cry and scream and cry some more. I'm sure Nick wants to murder me. 
• We are allowed to exercise in this program but only 3 days a week. I'm doing the 21 day fix videos but not daily. They kick my ass something fierce. Holy cow. 

Truth 1- physically I feel fantastic. Not really hungry. I have energy. I don't feel bloaty or gross. Mentally I'm a crazy lady. It's been touch and go at my house all weekend. I've had zero patience. I guess being on shakes only has made my hormones unstable.  I can go from happy to punch you in the face in two seconds flat. Poor Nick. I think I need a tv show, it would be quite entertaining.

Truth 2 - I do laundry all weekend and leave it in baskets for me to put away later. Later is never. I used to be so good about putting it away but lately not so much. I just have 5 laundry baskets in my room. Kids come get your clothing here. 

Truth 3 - I turn 36 in less than 2 weeks. It's also Mother's Day weekend. I'm terrified of getting closer to 40. 

Truth 4 - my boss ( the Registrar of the college I work for ) announced his retirement last Friday. I cried at my desk like a loser. And so badly wanted wine and instead had mint tea. 

What are your truths ?

This week: 

1. For a supportive man who has taken on cooking and cleaning and grocery shopping ( which he usually shops anyway ) because I can't eat food. It's hard for me to cook ( I nibble while cooking) so he's doing it all for me.  Now I won't say there hasn't been a pizza day, but he's doing pretty well.  All while he quit smoking on the same day I quit eating. It's intense in my house to say the least. 

2. Saturday's off! There won't be many of those soon and before I know it I'll be shooting back to back weddings all summer until November. So while I have Saturday's free it's nice to enjoy with mall dates with my girls!

3.  And this last one is completely random but I'm grateful for Costco. Because the cost of groceries for my family is insane even with me not eating so I'm very thankful for a place to buy in bulk. Lol lame I know but this place makes my heart happy. 

In this new journey for a better me I can't really move forward until I look back a bit. And apologize. When Instagram and Facebook really got popular people started posting all sorts of stuff. What they wore, or ate that day or their work out routine. A few years ago ( I want to say 2012) I was miserable. Hated myself. My body. I was overworked, overweight. Didn't take care of myself at all dressed frumpy and judged everyone. I would joke around about friends posting their body rock videos or flexing. Really I was just jealous they had their shit together. and it's super embarrassing to admit that. But being the well adjusted human being I am now I can look back at that time and learn from how horrible I was, say sorry and move on.  That doesn't excuse my mean girl-ness at all. I just can't fix what had said.  I can just learn. And now that I'm going on my journey and posting the crap out of it. I'm probably annoying someone out there too. But this new me , the almost 36 year old me, finally doesn't give two shits about what others think. So if I've judged you, I'm sorry. 

N:)

So I have a few graphic tees but none are work appropriate. And since I have to work ( you know to feed the kids ) I wanted a tee that I could style for work. Here's where I had an "aha" moment. My Hubby has making t shirts at work for a while now and I asked him to make a shirt I needed so badly after Lauren Graham tweeted it.  And I got this :

To make this look work friendly, I threw a black blazer and black pencil pants on, some leopard flats and called it a day. Oh and some hoop earrings for fun. 






Anyone who knows me, knows Gilmore Girls is life, so this is my new fave shirt. I had seen Deena's sweater she posted on Instagram and I thought, why in the world hasn't Nick made me a GG shirt yet?? Be warned, I'll be making more! Need a custom shirt, he can do it. (click here) .

He also made me this fat Amy tank for working out and if you've been following along with my weigh loss journey you will know I will actually have to use it for cardio. Bah. 

Make sure to check out all the other ladies and how they styled their graphic tee ! 

ONCE UPON A TIME & HAPPILY EVER AFTER : Library-Lovin’-Lady

Truth 1 -Yesterday I completely forgot Nevaehs baby sitter was off for the day and at 3:05pm I remembered. You know the exact time she was supposed to be picked up from school. Thank god I have my neighbours cell phone number and I caught her before she left the school with her kids. Or poor little nev would have been waiting for someone. #momfail

Truth 2 - I hate making lunches just like most moms but I hate signing agendas more. I'm so good September - November. Now I have no idea where they are. Teachers hate me. And I don't care. I work 2 jobs and have 4 kids. I can't even remember the teachers names half the time I have so many kids so I have a note on my phone to remind me. Before I get grief about this , remember I'm lucky I remember my kids names. 

Truth 3 - sometimes I want to punch nick in the face and kiss him five minutes later. And not in a 50 shades kinda way. In the I can hate and love you with equal passion. I'm fairly certain this is reciprocal. 

Truth 4. My car is disgusting. Like My house can be spotless but my car - nope. I have clothing. Toys. Tim Hortons cups and bags and God only knows what else in there. You want me to drive you somewhere? Just put your feet on the junk and pretend it's not there. 

Truth 5. Mornings are bad for me. I'm not a morning person and have zero patience. I've lost it on the kids on more than one occasion and felt guilty about it all day at work. Only to share that with co workers who've also done the same. Thank god for honest other moms who sometimes lose their shit. I hate Pinterest moms. ( can that be a hashtag)?!

Do you have any truths - love to hear them. They will make me feel better:)

I skipped last week so this is two weeks of moments that I'm grateful for. Linking up with Shaunacey again :)

First of all look how awesome the ladies did last week ( I say ladies and not we because I failed)

Moving onto this week. Cardi, tee, jeans and statement necklace. This is my life staple. I wear this formula often, but I was rushed when I remembered I couldn't do my normal photo shoot with my daughter Tuesday evening. So I threw this combo together quickly and had her photograph me at oh 6:45am .My hair is a disaster so forgive me. Otherwise I love this combo! I went with grey denim because I can get away with it at work during the week:)

It's week 6 of our style challenge! It's been so fun ! Make sure you head to the blended blog to see Lanas look and visit all the other ladies who linked up below. Here is a recap of last weeks bright pants look (my fave yet)

But I'm a team player and had to go to the doctors so I dressed myself with this weeks prompt and took two terrible selfies. (I'm sorry Lisa - this will totally ruin your collage for next week)

Told you I failed. I tried to find old pics of me wearing spring type sweaters and only found these. 

Not overly large photos. At the time I was focusing on my statement necklace addictions. Oh well you get the drift. 

I'm back to bed as this has taken most of my energy but make sure to check out everyone's looks by clicking the links below I promise they will be better than my look!   

2 - Bad weather days. As in really bad weather. March came in like a lion, and well....went out like a lion. Stupid mother nature.

March 1st: (after shovelling)

March 25th.



70 trillion - Mini eggs eaten.


5 - more seasons of Bones Watched. I'm very confident in my ability to re construct a skelton. I often use words like Phalange, mass spec or ulna in everyday conversation now. I'm like way smart.

1 - movie seen at the theatre  - zootopia, where I developed my second crush on an animated fox. Weird.

8 - number of years Miller Ellis has held mini sessions. We did so again this year, and our set was adorable.

1 early easter brunch with my family, which I recapped here


10 - number of stares Nevaeh got in costco wearing this outfit.


39048398 - pieces of foam from crafts I've picked up off of the floor. I cannot wait for great outdoor weather, so kids can GET OUTSIDE. 

2 - dances Nevaeh did at her school recital this week. 

1- group date. Nick and I didn't get our alone date night this month but we did do a group date out on St pattys so it counts. At least it was a night out!